Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I'm back

I'm hoping to find my blogging voice again. I know I said that when I started this blog, but this time I mean it ;)

This past year has been the most rewarding and yet most challenging years of my life. The good moments definitely outweigh the bad, but I think that I didn't want to blog about the hard parts because I didn't want to come across as ungrateful. I did keep up with Samantha's blog (well mostly) if that means anything :)

Infertility is hard, pregnancy is hard (well for me it was), and parenting is hard. Each stage brought it's own hurdles, and it's own rewards. I wouldn't change one thing about our journey to become parents.

We will be gearing up this year to try for baby #2. That brings a whole new level of anxiety and excitement. I'm getting more towards the excitement side of things! I have an appt with our RE mid-April and we hope to do another FET before the years end. I want to get any testing that needs to be done out of the way. I know I'm being awfully vague with these details, but we want to be able to surprise our families with the news like we did last time. When I first posted on twitter that I had scheduled our RE appt, I was feeling very guilty. A sort of infertility survivor's guilt. I don't know if those are the right words. Guilt that so many others are still waiting for their miracle and we are going to be trying for our second miracle.

It seems that it was easier for me to write during the hard times than it is during the good times. I've come up with hundreds of blog posts in my head, but they always seemed so lame once I wanted to write them out.  I'm still trying to figure out this parenting thing and to be honest, I don't know how people did this without social media ;)

So, I'm not sure if anyone is still around to read this, but I'm going to try and be better about blogging. Maybe I need some blog prompts. Anything you want to know?

xoxo

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6 comments:

  1. Welcome back! I know, I don't know/didn't know what to blog about after I had Caroline. I didn't want to complain but I didn't want to just write fluff either. Yay for the RE!! I plan on going back this summer to try for #3 if we're lucky.

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  2. I'm still here, and I'm so glad to see that you're getting your writing gloves back on. I've always called it "infertility survivor's guilt." I think that to some degree,we all end up feeling it at some point in time.

    I'm VERY excited to hear that you're gearing up for #2! xoxo

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  3. Welcome back! To be honest, I like reading about people's everydays. Not necessarily "we went to the park today and the wind blew", but you know - cute things that she does, how you're processing babe #2, funny stories that happen to all of us. That kind of thing. Just write, the words will come to you.

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  4. I'm still here! I'd love to read some funny stories about your sweet Sami. Especially ones about her upcoming swimming lessons. :)

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  5. Still here too!
    I hear ya on the guilt thing...when we try again in a few years I probably won't even blog about it. I love seeing your pictures of miss Samantha.

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  6. What I find amazing is how quickly you can fall right back into the "funk" of infertility once you start trying again. It's different when you have a kid - guilt that you should be grateful to even have one. And you are. But it still stings when #2 is elusive. Hmm, this comment is seeming pointless. I guess my point is there will be mixed emotions no matter what, if it works you feel bad for those struggling. If it doesn't work you feel bad for yourself. The good news is that the toddler helps to ease the suck of the process the second time around. :)

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