I'm hoping to find my blogging voice again. I know I said that when I started this blog, but this time I mean it ;)
This past year has been the most rewarding and yet most challenging years of my life. The good moments definitely outweigh the bad, but I think that I didn't want to blog about the hard parts because I didn't want to come across as ungrateful. I did keep up with Samantha's blog (well mostly) if that means anything :)
Infertility is hard, pregnancy is hard (well for me it was), and parenting is hard. Each stage brought it's own hurdles, and it's own rewards. I wouldn't change one thing about our journey to become parents.
We will be gearing up this year to try for baby #2. That brings a whole new level of anxiety and excitement. I'm getting more towards the excitement side of things! I have an appt with our RE mid-April and we hope to do another FET before the years end. I want to get any testing that needs to be done out of the way. I know I'm being awfully vague with these details, but we want to be able to surprise our families with the news like we did last time. When I first posted on twitter that I had scheduled our RE appt, I was feeling very guilty. A sort of infertility survivor's guilt. I don't know if those are the right words. Guilt that so many others are still waiting for their miracle and we are going to be trying for our second miracle.
It seems that it was easier for me to write during the hard times than it is during the good times. I've come up with hundreds of blog posts in my head, but they always seemed so lame once I wanted to write them out. I'm still trying to figure out this parenting thing and to be honest, I don't know how people did this without social media ;)
So, I'm not sure if anyone is still around to read this, but I'm going to try and be better about blogging. Maybe I need some blog prompts. Anything you want to know?