Thursday, April 5, 2012

Moving Forward

When we first got married, I was 24 and M was 27. My life plan was to have babies at age 25, 27, 29 and 31. 4 kids two years apart. HA. Good thing that wasn't carved in stone.

I was 27 when we did our FET and 28 when I delivered. We thought about waiting till after Sam was 2 before going back to the RE. Of course, I did tell the nurse at my 6 wk post partum follow up that I hoped to see them sometime that year with a new baby on the way. Those post-partum hormones are insane y'all. I can't even imagine.

Whenever we would talk about baby #2, I would get overwhelmed. I am an only child, so I don't know how siblings interact or how to parent more than 1 baby. General anxiety over how to juggle two babies, if we'd be screwing Sam up by changing her whole world. Mike said we wouldn't screw her up, we'd be making her a big sister. It will makes me nervous to think about, but I think she will be a great big sister when the time comes. After I made the appt with the RE, my feelings of nervousness were lessening and my feelings of excitement were growing. Which I take as a good sign :)

For now, I leave you with a cute picture. Where did my little baby go?


4 comments:

  1. *hugs* It is scary and exciting at the same time :-)

    I don't know anyone who isn't somehow "screwed up" due to family dynamics...it's what makes us who we are, good and bad.

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  2. Remember how I cried the night before Jude was born, and I told J that we were "ruining B"? That couldn't have been further from what would happen, they adore each other. I have a friend who was an only child as well; she just had her second boy. She was overwhelmed by the thought of two, too. Not in terms of how to love them, but just the logistics of it all. She'd never been around two kids all day every day. But she's doing it; I'm doing it; you have lots of friends who do. The second one is so much less stressful than the first, you don't worry about every little thing. And your heart swells to incredible proportions. You'll be ready. xo

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  3. I grew up as an only child (wacky family dynamics - I won't get into details) but all of my life, all I wanted was a sibling (somewhat close to my own age...not 9 years older than me like I sort of had) I knew without a doubt, I would make sure my first born kid had a sibling - it's honestly the best thing I've ever done. Overwhelming at times? Sure...It is...but it's also the greatest thing in the world. For me, and for them. Whatever happens in our lives - you deal with it - and it will all be ok...

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